Friday, August 21, 2009
no cigar

Keitaro really messed up this time. He told me that he missed an important part of his thesis today. I should've known. I mean, he's been stuck in the computer playing games all week. It's like he was drugged into it.

"Keitaro! Did you finish your paper already?!"

"Ye- yeah, I'll get into it ASAP. -- HWAAH! I leveled up!" same thing all week.

posted by: narusegawa
@ 10:10 PM

Friday, July 18, 2008
time to flame up

Isn't it unfair for me? There hasn't been going on between the two of us for a long time and now, just now, he's asking me to a date tomorrow? It's super unfair. Why now? How come? What happened? To think that he'll win the problem by going on a date? Win me back. I've missed the usual times. And the times where I was longing for something made me forget the heat of our relationship. The fire is out; dim at the very least. It's like I don't know him anymore. And this stranger is asking me to go on a date tomorrow. For me, it would be better if we just sit down and catch up on things where we left. I seriously want to just talk to him. I don't want to go anywhere outside. Here is fine. I want to know what I missed. I'll know him more. Isn't it right for him to go simple? If he needs to make it up for the 'mistake', a conversation is good. Talk is good. It's a start. Not going on a date. 
posted by: narusegawa
@ 10:20 PM

Saturday, May 10, 2008
my ears are open

Isn't it rude to force Keitaro not to be 'boring', even though I just admitted it. Gasp. There, Keitaro, stop being dry and be to your lively self! This isn't you. I, even, tried to embarrass myself falling over and exposing erm... the underwear on my abdomen just so you could turn hysterical. But no, he just said.

"Erm. Sorry, Naru. I didn't see anything. Sorry. I'll go ahead and take a bath." and that was it. "Oyasumi." What? What was that good night for? I wanted to punch him right on the face, but at what reason?

He didn't do anything wrong. Is he doing something wrong? If he's not being himself, what if this is really how he is. There must be a reason. Shallow or deep, I don't care. Just tell me the reason.
posted by: narusegawa
@ 8:15 PM

Monday, May 05, 2008
what are you doing?

What the heck was he thinking? I was really lonely that time! Why can't he notice me? Have we become so saturated with each other, so used to being with each other that he doesn't recognize anything special with our bond? Keitaro! Answer me!

You know, if something's bugging him, then he should tell me, right? Not that I want to barge into his business, it's just that... well, I guess a normal conversation would be nice. Am I longing to talk to him so badly?

To be honest, it has been almost a year since we had a memorable conversation. Now that he's busy working on his thesis, not to mention survive the course, Keitaro has become so occupied that everyone is starting to worry. It's not only me. Kaolla-kun, Kitsune-san and even Auntie Haruka. Oh yeah, Kentaro also looked bummed. It's like he's saying that the atmosphere is getting dry.

Go outside. School. Come home. Eat dinner. Chat a little. Then bed. Oh, the monotony, Keitaro. I forgot how many months. It's like we went into hiatus.

And today he went to his room early. Around 7 maybe? That's early.
posted by: narusegawa
@ 9:08 PM

Monday, March 26, 2007
the continuance of yesterday

Now where was I?

I'm glad we were able to go out together. I had a few questions that I wanted to ask Kana-chan; and our going to the park was the opportunity. Like, one: she keeps coming back to the Hinata Sou. Why? Two: How does she love Keitaro? Seriously? The second question is somewhat confusing because it's out of the blue and obvious at the same time. Out of the blue because Kana-chan won't expect the question. Obvious because of the way she acts around Keitaro.

We took our time on the bench. "Kana-chan, you really like visiting your Oniichan. He must be really.." add extra really "really special to you."

"Isn't it obvious, Naru-san? I don't get tired of saying it over and over again. I love Oniichan. What of it?"

"Erm.." what an uncomfortable feeling. Time for a joke. "Jaa, why don't you take him abroad with you?"

"To be honest, Naru-san, I wish I could take him. But I don't want to force Oniichan into doing anything." wow. "I want to visit Oniichan as frequently as I can because... I don't want the distance between us to grow. I wish I could just stay here."

"Then why don't you?" crap. I said something I didn't mean. "Stay, I mean?" Hah? Why did I say that?

"Arigatou, Naru-san. Let's go, the store must've opened by now."

"Chotto, you didn't answer my queston." she totally avoided it.

The mystery comes down to one question. Why can't she stay here? Family problems or something? Maybe I should tell Keitaro to convince her.

What am I doing?!
posted by: narusegawa
@ 9:24 PM

Sunday, March 25, 2007
opposite ends meet

The few days with Kana-chan weren't bad after all. I was uncomfortable with the number of food inside the fridge, so I decided to buy groceries. I figured to go early because the provision won't last long. Common sense.

I saw Kana-chan going out for the door and asked her where she was going. Lucky! She's heading out to buy groceries as well.

"Kyou wa doko e, Kana-chan?"

"Ah, ohayou gozaimasu, Naru-san. I noticed that there isn't much in the fridge, So I..."

"So you're going to the market? Me too! Wahh, Keitaro's lucky to have a responsible little sister. My little sister's naive. Let's go together."

"Ahhh... okay." I hope we're both comfortable with this.

I ended up tagging along with Kana-chan. Or should I say, she ended up tagging along with me.

The morning was revitalizing. It wasn't that cold but I loved the temperature. The environment looked neat and the sun was bright. I woke up early and it's totally worth it.

The awkward thing is: Kana-chan and I didn't talk along the way.

Oh yeah, I almost forgot. It's also a common sense to go to the grocery preferably when it's opened. I was so engrossed of doing a good deed that I forgot that stores don't open early during Sundays. We decided to go to the park to kill some time.

"This is all so funny." Kana-chan broke the ice.

"Wha- what is?"

"Well, we were so engrossed with doing a good deed that we forgot it's Sunday." she totally read my mind...

Wait, Keitaro's knocking on my door. I'll just continue this tomorrow. See you, diary.
posted by: narusegawa
@ 10:02 PM

Sunday, March 18, 2007
doll me up in my bad luck

I thought things couldn't get any worse. But noooooo... my failing of my Psych101 exam, my forgetting of my homework back at home [again], my unsatisfying report, all of them weren't enough. Guess what, Keitaro's imouto is back. That's right, Kana-chan is back. After her sudden departure after Christmas, she's back. She leaves as she pleases, she returns as she pleases. Kana-chan has it good. Let me guess. She misses her oniichan again. I suppose her attitude has changed a bit. But I doubt that she won't be clinging to her oniichan. Mou, and I thought I could make up to Keitaro for what we've lost back in February. I know what you're thinking; March is already ending and you still haven't made up the loss? Way to go, Naru!
posted by: narusegawa
@ 9:46 PM